Loneliness

As defined by the Cambridge Dictionary loneliness is the state of being lonely[1] but what does exactly that mean?

According to the very well mind website:

While common definitions of loneliness describe it as a state of solitude or being alone, loneliness is actually a state of mind. Loneliness is defined by researchers as feeling lonely more than once a week. [2]

I want to talk about this today because from the last couple of weeks I've been struggling with a strange feeling that makes me want to do nothing but to stay at home wasting my time playing games on my phone or scrolling and hoping to find some inspiration or anything that makes me want to go outside and explore the beautiful city I live in; endlessly and desperately looking for inspiration in youtube from my favourite content creators that I know had been through the same feelings to finally understand how to overcome this.

During this rabbit hole of searching for something during half of my Sunday, I came across these couple of videos:

And although these didn't make me go take a shower, put my best clothes on and step out of my house to look for the incredible things out there to be discovered, it definitely made me think about where I am and where I want to go, how I am genuinely feeling right know and question myself why.

I couldn't agree more with Nathaniel when he says that he has been very fortunate enough and that has had a privileged life (just as I consider mine) and how can I dare to complain about anything given the opportunities and situations of the life I'm living in when there are homeless people out there or entire cities that doesn't have food on their tables.

It's true that I feel in some weird way but I can't describe if it is loneliness. I definitely had experienced a lack of motivation to do things that I enjoy or that I've always wanted to do like playing the piano more often, read, karting, walking on the beach, go try new restaurants in Seattle, snowboarding or making new friends. Overall, I feel like I need someone to second me or to validate what I'm going to in order to actually do it. Is something that I've struggled with my entire life.

I don't know what I'm exactly feeling right now but I know is holding me up on the things I want and need to do (like taxes, yes I'm also procrastinating) but at the end, something that helps me is putting my thoughts into words and getting them out of my head, it makes me feel that I took a huge weight off my shoulders and I can continue with my life.

I hope that this strange feeling doesn't last long and that I can motivate myself to do the things I've always wanted or imagined I would do.

“Remember: the time you feel lonely is the time you most need to be by yourself. Life's cruellest irony.”

― Douglas Coupland, Shampoo Planet

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[1] loneliness. (2021). Dictionary.cambridge.org. Retrieved 8 February 2021, from https://dictionary.cambridge.org/es/diccionario/ingles/loneliness

[2] The Health Consequences of Loneliness. (2021). Verywell Mind. Retrieved 8 February 2021, from https://www.verywellmind.com/loneliness-causes-effects-and-treatments-2795749